Lead
We have not worked on much big group project yet during my course at IBIS. So it is hard for me to reflect on my leading skills. We did work on some minor group projects in class, some of them only confiscated fifteen minutes. I was really insecure in the beginning, because I thought my classmates had already way more knowledge about the subject then I did. But the further the course developed the more secure I got. Because I came to the understanding, that also I was aisle to grasp and understand most of the information. And my answers for example, the BMC were not wrong, the interpretations I had for different problems were quite accurate. So my confidence in myself also grow, and I was not scared to lead or talk in a group.
I collaborated and asked if everyone agreed on everything, I think it is important to listen to everyone. Because a group does not function if some of the people do not agree on it. Although I am more comfortable with leading no, I don’t really like to do it. I prefer to just tell my opinion, and I do care about what happens and which decisions are made. But I do not necessarily feel the urge to lead. If there is someone else who likes to do it and is good at it. Than I am happy if they take that role on them.
"Their shyness keeps them from the podium, but they are the first to lend a helping hand where it's needed." ~16 personalities test.
My aversion for leading a group also comes across in my personality test. People with the INFP personality type have no interest in having power over others, and don't much care for domineering attitudes at all.
"Too Altruistic – INFPs sometimes see themselves as selfish, but only because they want to give so much more than they are able to. This becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy, as they try to push themselves to commit to a chosen cause or person, forgetting to take care of the needs of others in their lives, and especially themselves."~16 personalities test.
I certainly recognize this, especially during the making of the final assessment. I am so busy with making all the assessment, and because I am a perfectionist and dyslectic it is going to take some extra time. I would love to help people, and do it if I can. But it often happens that I am too busy with my own tasks, it’s than the only thing I think about. So I can still improve on my leader qualities, because if you are a leader you need to consider your whole team.