Reflection

When this block started I was very motivated and eager to start working hard and get good grades. The first few weeks I made all the assignments and was up to date with all the homework. I liked the courses “IWOB” and “FOB” the most because I thought I learned the most in these subjects. With “thinking and reasoning” and “what’s in my backpack” this wasn’t the case. I wasn’t motivated for these courses because I thought I wasn’t learning anything.

After the first few weeks I realized that I underestimated the importance of these subjects, these subjects help you perform better with the other classes it helps you think in a better way. So when the weeks passed I started working less on school, I don’t really know why this happened it just did. When the weeks passed I almost only made the assignments for the economic subjects and neglected the rest. This eventually back fired at me at the end of the block.

In week 4 of the block I had an appointment with a psychiatrist about my concentration problem. After a few test and a long conversation I heard that I have ADHD, this is a mental illness which means that you have problems with concentrating and allot of extra energy. I have had a few meetings with this psychiatrist and I thought I would go a bit quicker. With this I mean that I was counting on getting medicine to help me concentrate. I still don’t have these medicine. I was kind of waiting with making all my assignments for school until I got these medicine so I could be more efficient. This became an argument for me to not make any homework at all until I got the medicine. You could say I used this as an excuse to not do anything at all. I regret it now but I have learned from it. I know now that I should not make excuses for not making homework but just do it. And if I could get some help in the form of medicine eventually I would be nice but I should be able to do something for school without this kind of help. For now the psychiatrist helps me plan and get some structure in my life, that is the first step. I think these skills will help me in my studying time to not forget assignments and keep trek of all my homework.

When the weeks passed by I came into a negative spiral and almost did nothing for a few weeks. Then all of a sudden the “IWOB” assessment was within two days I didn’t do anything for it yet. So I tried to do as much as possible to get a good grade for this course. But with the resent information that I have ADHD and problems with concentrating for a long time I should have known better that I am not able to work concentrated for more than 3 hours. So I could have known that it is impossible for me to do so much work in 2 days. I should have taken the ADHD result more seriously and should have known that I have to plan my work better. I now know that have to plan my work better and can’t do an entire assignment in 2 days, I have to take more time to finish such an assignment. I wasn’t satisfied with the work I delivered for “IWOB” and I think it won’t be sufficient.

After the “IWOB” assignment I had to do allot of work for all the other subjects, I started working on all of them at once which lead to chaos in my head. I became so stressed that I was really inefficient and did the wrong assignments. Eventually I had two days to finish my website and the “FOB” assessment. I choose to start working on my Fundamentals assessment and to try and finish that and then start working on my website. I had to make a decision which one I was going to finish and which one I was probably going to fail. I choose for fundamentals because I am really bad at making a website and I don’t have the wright knowledge to create a website.

When I finished the fundamentals assessment I decide not to work on my website because I knew I could not finish it. I spent the remaining day thinking about how I could make sure that this kind of procrastination would not happen again. Decide that next block I am going to make a planning for each week so I have a clear overview of what I have to do. This will make it easier to start on something because it what I have to do and when I want to finish it.

I did not work hard enough to finish all my assignments and tis really bums me out, I am motivated to finish this study and I hoop that because of a bad first block I have thrown away this entire study. I am going to work ten times as hard next block to make up for all the lost work from this block and make sure that this won’t happen again and I collect all the possible point this year.

What I learned this block is that I am not able to do an assessment in a few days. I don’t perform that well under pressure and when I want to do everything in one day I tend to forget stuff. This has something to do with my ADHD and because I am human. So next semester I have to make a planning each week so I don’t forget assignments and deadlines. When you do all the homework it will also be easier to do the assessments because you already worked with the subject and you master it better. When I am going to do this regularly I am sure of it that I am going to finish the IBIS course and maybe even with an 7 average.